Brought to You by Eating Disorder! and Sonic!

confessional

It is the only authentic Nijinsky choreography that exists. No matter what they say in France : home of the people who ruined Nijinsky on May 29, 1913.

I had been waxing ridiculous for years on my blogspot “This Is Not Swan Lake” for a bit. I pretty much only had the capacity to emo blog and a good solid knowledge of the Rite because my Dad showed me how to work the reel to reel (then he left me with Stravinsky and a bunch of Mothers of Invention reels and no supervision.  At 8. Your questions are now all answered.).

Somehow my blog became syndicated and being the only person with the Joffrey original performance on YouTube (I have no memory of getting that) I got popular.  There is no way this collective ever looked at my b log whose tag line was “selling ballet in barrooms one F-Bomb at a time”. 

Anyway this syndication  fell apart and it collided oddly at the same time that I reached my zenith with body dysmorphia.   I was almost at 95 lb and you don’t get those jutting bones by “cutting down carbs”. You gotta own it.

So I stopped writing about the ballet and got Olympic level busy with self-destruction and all that crap and then, you know, they open a Sonic  and then you find out you’re really good at making pie crust and well well, here we are. 

But I needed to learn more about the ballet and so I had to communicate with Hodson and Archer.  I could have written a letter. But I chose to go full jailhouse with Millicent.

I turned my blog into prison and Millicent Hodson was the baddest bitch there so I went at her and punched her in the face. She would naturally kick my ass but at least I would make a name for myself by going to the Top Dog and getting it over with .

Essentially I just wrote a couple of posts  really denigrating her. And she contacted me and told me to stop referring to myself as a Philistine ( I did it a lot).

That explains very succinctly her level of commitment to preserving this ballet.  

She and Kenneth are so invested that their hearts are able to see past stupid pony tricks like I pulled and so they let me draw them in and ask them questions . In fact look what they gave m dwhich allowed me to begin a digital archive of the dancers – how had that not been done? I mean who wouldn’t want to infect 2 laptops with viruses while searching for dancers all over the globe?

Is it possible I am remembering it wrong? I don’t know but it’s a good story right?

Part Two to come based on readership so that’s the end.

Forever grammar-resistant,

Fatova

He brought a lot to the table I guess

Ballet Shade

Did you even know about this thing:

It was Pietragalla’s first big move – she added a cute boyfriend. No, no, I mean she added Julien Derouault’s idea of martial arts and street dancing into her choreography. Then they got married, his name got added to the company name and I have had to look away because it just never works out when a woman marries a guy 17 years her junior or whatever. Last photo i saw, she looked like his mom.

But he brought a lot to the table. Like ffs look at this photo from the show:

There were a lot of missteps in this production but multi media was new to a lot of dance companies etc and as was the case when I learned photoshop, they were heavy handed with the graphics. And then at the end there was this nonsensical pas de deux that seemed to say “hey, we’re dating” . It really didn’t seem to do anything but that. But I get it. They were both hot, he was and up and comer she was a brilliant bitch who doesn’t come to the US EVER and well well.

Also, aside from the usual Armand Amar the production featured The Prodigy and the Chemical Brothers. And whatever, it was financed by Pierre Cardin for the fucking Beijing Olympics so maybe Pietragalla wanted to bury this things, good night.

Still ain’t spell checking.

When Ballet Attacks! #7

Ballet Shade, Stravinsky

How did this ever fly? A ballet that ends with people walking up stairs. To quite possibly the most beautiful 2 minutes ever to close a masterpiece. How was Stravinsky OK with this?

Enter this stupid play. Oh? It is choreography? What the hell?  It is the most anti-climactic thing I’ve ever seen on a stage with perhaps the exception of German performance art. And to the The Firebird closing minutes which are almost Divine at least angelic.

Every time I look at this I feel a little less guilty about slapping Fokine’s  great-granddaughter in her face at a German bar . I didn’t do that but it would have been funny right?

This choreography  is like the equivalent of watching people loading groceries into a minivan. 

When Not To Throw Ballet Shade

Ballet Shade

Cecilia Kerche did something very big. something which would have consequences and divide people from her.  I took a look at her Facebook after she approved this article wrote with her story and it wasn’t the people supporting her that I noticed – it was the absence of those who probably should have been.

You know when we are young  we are stupid. We think whatever it is we’re doing will last forever and life will be the same and we will never be injured. Never sidelined , always special.

Heather Aagard, Joffrey


It’s nonsense.  I have watched some of the machinations of the dance world.  I’ve seen that many companies have no regard for their dancers most particularly for the women who may not have been famous but who have done something great to sustain the company when they needed it.
This does not seem like a reason to be casting somebody off but rather they should be celebrated.


This is a difficult thing to experience I imagine. That competition just to stay in the game all the while subjected to that Panic that you may lose your spot.


 I think it’s possible in the dance world that stepping on others to get to the top is  an accepted practice. Perhaps even quietly encouraged. When we engage in that type of behavior there is no sacrifice in us.

Anna Simondi, Zurich

Show me an instance where a person makes a sacrifice to hurt others or to hurt them self. It’s impossible – a sacrifice is something done for good,  for the betterment of others , for our own survival and contribution,  and it is always something that hurts because your courage is all you have.


Those people you thought you had in your life very quietly slip away. And we are left with nothing but the sacrifice for the courage of our conviction. Is very hard to see the Dawn at that time – but it’s not necessary because when we have that kind of character there is always a lamp lit in the window for us. There is always a home because that light is coming from inside.

If you don’t sacrifice at some point  there will be no light for you and you’ll wander looking for that home from place to place empty with regret.


Someone told me to be careful who I step on on my way up because I will certainly see them again on my way back down.

I do not know the politics of what is going on in Rio de Janeiro. I do know the pain of rejection from your community also I know the guilt of being on the other side of it. We must always remember these things no matter shoes you are wearing.

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Fatova “a little on the serious side” Mingus